The Value of Feeling Lost
Transcript Excerpt of Jane’s Teachings
during the “Shifting into Your New Consciousness” group 7-23-09
(Participants’ names are changed to protect their privacy.)
(Anita said at the beginning of the group that she is feeling lost. She doesn’t know where she is, and that this is very painful to her. When Jane asked why that was painful, Anita said you have to know what you’re doing at all times, and that’s how you steer the boat.)
“And that’s in a very specific old paradigm in which there is a very specific way that a responsible human being is supposed to go through this life — what they accomplish, what they’re responsible for, how they act, how they appear to others, their relationship with their job or career. There’s a whole set things, which is a complete construct, and has nothing to do with reality. It’s what causes people to go into despair in middle age. It’s called mid-life crisis when a person realizes that this whole construct they’ve devoted their life to is meaningless, and has nothing to do with reality.
Being lost is standing in the question. From that place you can find out what’s actually there. It has nothing to do with this whole scenario that you were just describing, because in that place where you think you know what you are doing — where you are steering the boat based on some construct passed down through the generations, having nothing to do with direct personal experience of life — you never find out truth. It’s a place where nothing meaningful can happen. You are in a much better place when you feel lost and are standing in the question than having mastery over an old construct. That’s really lost.
It’s perhaps the guilt or rebellion of feeling as though you have to be doing this old set way of doing things, but not doing it, that keeps you stuck in the power-struggle about it. That’s my guess, because one thing I’ve been noticing, is that even when you are in a place of pain, maybe especially when you’re in pain, you have an opposite expression on your face. You look like there’s an inner joke going on. My guess is that it’s almost like an adolescent rebelling against this external thing you’re supposed to be doing, and you’ll be damned if you will do it. You’re saying f-u. And that f-u is keeping you stuck. You don’t trust enough what you really want to do, and standing in the question and really looking and looking at your situation and following your inner guidance. You don’t trust that. You think it’s wrong and bad and something to feel guilty about. You’re always imagining this external voice that you’re supposed to be doing this or that, and you’re rebelling against it, and so you’re stuck. You can’t go one way or the other with it.
The old concepts and the old paradigms of how reality gets defined, has nothing to do with what’s true. It has to do with people imposing human constructs on their experience. And it’s people leaning on other people’s constructs to define reality. And that’s not how reality is defined at all. Reality has to do with truth, and it has to do with your own personal inner experience. And when you are out there with your own personal experience, that has a large effect on everyone around you — not because you’re imposing something or making someone be some way. It is the expression of what’s true. And what’s true rings true, and is extremely powerful. As soon as you’re aligned with anything that’s true, it then becomes aligned with a larger reality, and then you are adding to creation.”
